Thursday, March 13, 2008

a piece of fiction...

Wrote it some time back for my old blog. Kind of self reflecting piece...
He was upset. After all these years, suddenly it came from his past to hound him. First he tried to escape. He ran till one day he realized that his feet cannot but stand still. He tried drowning himself in wine, in idle chatter, in the company of friends and merry faces... but it always came back to hound him - the moment he took a break to catch his breath, the moment he sat to wipe his brow, it leaped silently.. It waited in shadows... with no haste... He was confused. He knew that he don’t want to confront it. No, not confront; he don’t want even to recognize the existence of it. He is the primeval man. He is always proud of himself; of his control over the chaos his mind goes through; of his controlled emotions; of his independency on other souls... He was afraid; afraid of confession; afraid of recognizing the existence of something he hurled to doom years back.... he was afraid of losing to himself. He can lose to any one but to himself. He love to play with fire, even though he knew one day it can turn back and lick him; and take him with it. He enjoyed his control, and the arrogance came with the realization that he can control. He no longer seeked acceptance; nor gave acceptance. He sneered at those who asked for his acceptance; he enjoyed his actions and laughed at those who tried to dissuade him from playing with fire.Then it came from his past; with a vengeance to destroy. With a calm face and iron grip and it gained force every moment he tried to deny the existence of it....He knew he could not go on, and one day it will confront him. It took him all the energy he had to do it - at last he faced it, stabbed it with cross made of silver, and put a garland of garlic on Itz throat. He said the last amen... and walked in the rain....

16 comments:

d SINNER!!! said...

nice...would love to read it iced with direct emotions!!!

Pointblank said...

heyy! Good u said it was written some time back! I thot it was a direct impact of visiting my blog! My blog does give out unpleasant vibes! heheh

Well... too sleepy to read it actually. Will come back and read it!

vagabond dreamer said...

it felt strange reminds me of another story.

c e e d y said...

very cool - you could twist and make it into a very nice Cola commercial.....zindagi sirf appunki....take a chill pill yaarr

PREETI said...

is it gna ocntinue...?

Love said...

nicely written! 'cept its a bit too grim... you can bring the character out from the dumps towards happiness :D

or just get him married :p

--xh-- said...

@d-s: yeah.. was under heavy emo stress whn i wrote that :)
@pb: no re.. ur blog dont give any bad vibes... coem back and read it.. but nothing worth re-reading actually.
@shaanu:well, i am all ears.
@ceedy: now whn u say that - itz true. lets pitch in and try to sell it :-)
@preeti: nope. itz not gonna continue.
@LJ:oh, he walked back to happiness :-)

vEENs said...

hell lot of emotional stress u were in when u wrote this!

glad to know he has walked towards happiness!

gunj said...

smething from everyonez life!
was nice!

Joy said...

Very poignant.
" he was afraid of losing to himself. He can lose to any one but to himself."
If he does not lose to himself, don't you think he is going away from himself? He is denying something his heart wants....

anonme said...

good one! :)
i enjoyed reading the comments! lols..

Thinking aloud said...

whoa!!! that was intense...

so now he's happy?

Confounded-Lady said...

Whoa.
The trick to story telling is keeping it short. Ive learnt my lesson m'lord

*~*Sameera*~* said...

The intensity of it was mind-blowing!

Glad he did what he had to :)

♥bμşγ-ŵŗϊŧēŕ♥ said...

Ah, here's one story completely left for the readers to interpret! Nicely put... the intensity was high....very high.
i liked the part bout the fire turnin back n lickin him..nice line!


P.S-when you wrote it, what was on your mind eh? curious, i am.

P.PS-you're tagged! :)

--xh-- said...

@veenz: :)
@gunj: true :)
@joy: he won the fight at last, and is no more denayed anything his heart wants.
@Anonme: :)
@ta: yeah, hez as happy as he can be :-)
@cl: hehe.. :)
@sameera: :) yeah, it was quiet intense a period whn i wrote it...
@busy writer: he he - was going through soem emotional conflicts, and something over a past relationship... it was good to vent out :-D will take up tag soon - yet to check the blog :)